Anyway it became obvious to me, that the guy was more in love with the idea of being in love than actually connecting with it. Why? We would text each other regularly, and I noticed that it seemed as if he wasn't reading mine. It started to seem as if he felt that all he had to do was post "I love you.." or "I miss you...", for there to be some kind of connection...NOT! I kept wondering if like he said I was looking for an excuse to opt out, but I wasn't, I think he was and I think he has been as I was not his first long distance relationship. Anything wrong with this picture? No if that's what one wants & yearns for, you know, love that you can put in a box and take it out to dust it down from time to time. I aint looking for that type of love, long distance or not!
I have ended it, as there was not enough potential for it to be anything other than infatuation. I mean I am not going to be relocating any time soon and I am not going to hold on to the I love you's etc, as frankly it didn't feel real.
What has my heart learnt from this situation? That I can move on from here and let go of an even bigger heartbreak that is my broken marriage and find peace. Goodbye to the dream that is long distance love. Hello to the reality of potential intimacy.

Yea Yea!!!
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