Travel Light! Solitary Route!

I really don't do groups; I mean I'm not a clique person.  I don't fit comfortably in groups, people don't follow me in groups either.  I am a loner.  I used to spend a lot of time growing up thinking that perhaps something is wrong with me; I'm not enough this or that...too much this or that etc.  Many of the choices I've made in life have found me travelling a very solitary route.
Then I started the process of acceptance of who I am or am not.  I am finding and learning  peace from this perspective.
I figure that when we leave this earth we're taking our baggage WITH US (yea that's right!!!), so perhaps it's a really good thing for me.  I project that I will be ascending anyway so it better be light.

Don't get me wrong, it doesn't always feel rosy travelling solo, yet at the same time, it's less noise and I get plenty of opportunity to heed any knowledge that may have greater access to filtering through.  At the same time too, travel light can also have an ego centred perspective as sometimes it can get a little too me, myself and I.   For me meditation helps massively here as I get the chance to ground EVERYTHING!  I am then guided to whatever is priority whether it's ego stuff or service.

I am mostly happy with the state of things and I'm not embarrassed at all to say I do enjoy my own company.  I am however, embarrassed to say that I often laugh by myself at my own jokes  ( honestly, at times hysterically!!! ).

I had my first Astro natal chart done over half my lifetime ago, and followed it up again more recently over the past few year.  It is my passport to how I use my energies or not.  For example, how I commune with my inner & upper selves too.   I know now that the elements are a core essential part of what we have to work with and navigate through whatever storms we weather.  The elements are used also, to share and extend, to work with and to encourage the heights , triumphs, love and bliss.

I've got some huge karmic stuff I've come to work through in this lifetime.   I know this from my 12th house, the house of the collective conscious, the house of the ancestors,  where I have some huge planets and responsibilities to myself development and because of what was suppressed mainly regarding female ancestry on a cultural level going back many lifetimes.   Yep!!!   I gotta lot of shit to shovel & a stelium ( I think that's what it's called will ask my astro tutor again) where you have the same sign occurring like a full house in one house!!

So that I am a loner makes really POSITIVE sense to me.  I am learning to WORK IT!!!